Yikes, Rand, I'm sorry you're feeling so down. And depression is nothing to whine about--it's real as you know. Luckily, at 77, I'm athletic, vibrant and looking forward to the future. Sure, I get down at times--more often than I'd like and I have no idea what brings it on. I let it be, feel it and try to move on. Realizing how blessed I am and saying thank you helps tremendously. Good luck to you.